An Affair of The Heart

Premier’s tonight on EPIX!  You can watch it streaming online with a free trial subscription too!  Go to http://www.epixhd.com/ to see it!

I am honored and excited to be a small part of this documentary!  Check it out!

Rick (and me) on The Jeff Probst Show

So.. I was in this documentary….

Surprised the heck out of me to hear one of the clips used on the show was of my little part in the movie.  Yeah the lady calls me “odd” and “strange”, but I don’t care.. Rick has always been there for me in my times of need, either on my walls when I was a lonely kid looking for a friend  in his words and music which made my heart light, or as a human being caring about me when my husband died when I was 35.  I think we’ve both taught each other some lessons, and we exist in each others life, though a very small part of mine in his, for a reason!

The Mystery Artist Is Rick Springfield – Songs for the End of the World

Here it comes folks, my favorite singer Rick Springfield has a new album comming out on October 9th, 2012.  Its called “Songs for the end of the world” and it has some really great sounds, lyrics, and vibes to the music.  Rick usually writes about his life, and its been a heck of a few years.  Rick has massive talent and is able to connect with his fans on a very special level, straight into the heart.  Musically the album is filled with catchy tunes, deep meanings, and songs you’ll want to listen to over and over.  Offered in 4 different sleeves, bonus content varies for each of the covers which depict 4 alternate ways the world might end.  Not a depressing album.. Rick’s songs will confront your emotions, and bring you home to positive and inspirational conclusions.

Songs for the end of the world – hits stores October 9th, 2012

I’m totally in love with this song…it does all come down to you and me… each relationship in our lives is between you and me.. even god.

Bravo Rick…

Self Portrait 2005 and An Act of Faith

Self portrait January 2005 - Graphite Pencil on Sketch Pad

This is a self-portrait that I did for my first drawing class ever.  We were charged with creation of a self-portrait and to put three things that mean something to us in the picture.  I am wearing my necklace, which was given to me by my sister Jeanne to wear at her wedding which was in June 2004.  I was the matron of honor, 2 months after Stephen passed away.  That wedding meant so much to me because it helped me realize that marriage was until death do you part, and that I had to accept that part of my life to be over.  Hard pill to swallow when all you want is to go back to when life was sweet.

In the background you see a box of tissues and my husbands ashes in a cardboard box.  I promised him I would take them to his childhood summer get away in Booth Bay Harbor, Maine.  It was his maternal grandparents (Ludwig) place, and he was very much happy as a child there.   It took Stephen 9 years to get his Mother there (he told me the story many time) so I have 2 more years to do it.  It was a very emotional time when I drew this picture, and I can see how much pain I was in.  I’m still in pain, and will always feel sad that Stephen had to go.

Stephen always carried the pain of his Dad (at 10), Mom (at 25) and Grandma’s death (at 35) with him and it was a root cause of his severe bi-polar.  We talked about it often and I sure do understand him more now that I have gone thru the sheer pain of loss of someone you love.  It was the single most painful thing I have ever experienced and I got through it alive, however not unscathed.  Enjoy everyday you have… this life is a gift of the most pure nature, and it is not something to be wasted or taken for granted.

But I am blessed again with love and a life that perplexes me daily.  I know he would be happy that I found a way to live on and I continue to follow my dreams and I try not to dwell on it too much (but I still do).

Act of Faith – Rick Springfield

I tell you honestly,
Don’t you go and throw your heart away
I know it’s so hard to do
You’ve got to let go when you want to hold on
I know how much you miss him celebrate what you had
Don’t cry about the things left unsaid
It’ll do no good

You look for mercy and a meaning somewhere
You know that the hurting won’t go
‘Til you walk through the fire

It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith stand up and face the day
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith, nobody can make you stay
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith

Maybe love will find it’s way back into your life
Here’s my heart my love is in it
Here’s my heart my love is in it

Stand up, don’t you fall
You just take good care of where you are
You’re thinking life’s through with you
That’s not what he’d want or what you should do
I know you loved him baby celebrate who he was
I know you know you’ve got to go on and live your life
Go down to the river of the spirit that runs through you
And lay yourself down in the healing waters

It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith stand up and face the day
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith, nobody can make you stay
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith
Maybe love will find it’s way back into your life

Love is a healer
There is no purpose served in holding on
Love is a healer
There is no understanding why
Love is a healer
There is no sin in you that brought this to your door
My love, it just is

Here’s my heart my love is in it
Here’s my heart my love is in it
Here’s my heart my love is in it

It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith stand up and face the day
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith, nobody can make you stay
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith
Maybe love will find it’s way back into your life

It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith stand up and face the day
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith, nobody can make you stay
It’s gonna take an Act Of Faith
Maybe love will find it’s way back into your life…

My First Music Video

This is a video I put together for fun… I used (with permission) clips from the limited edition Rick Springfield CD and set them to music.. while creating a story…He never released this song but I loved it.. mostly because I am one of the sea….

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheRLSChannel?feature=mhee#p/a/u/1/h_5Z6AyP-KU

You will find out pretty quickly that Rick Springfield is someone who will pop up a great deal in things that I do.  He’s been in my life since I was 12 or so.  First as posters on my wall and now someone who writes the music that drives my life….that sounds somewhat stalkerish, and even he refers to his fans as the freaks ( although I hate that reference, I am NOT a freak, nor do I aspire to be) I’m just a girl who loves his music, his performances, and well him!  I’ll post that story later.

Rick Springfield and Robin May 7th, 2004